Friday, September 28, 2012

Friday Strutting

Linking up with Rachel again this week. I'm so happy to see Friday. This weekend is going to consist of a lot of cuddling, laughing, and playing with my sweet girl who so badly missed her mama today. Plus, this Sunday is Revenge, New Jersey reunion, and Once Upon A Time!

 I really love these red pants. I have such a hard time though finding things to go with them.
 Probably an all time favorite outfit. So easy and comfy. But I still feel cute!
 Wednesday. Necklace was my mom's in high school. target cardigan. kohl's pants and cami
 Thursday. Another striped cardigan. This outfit brough to you by good ole Tommy Hilfiger
Casual Friday. With jeans and leopard flats. I had a long chain on as well but prissy broke it as soon as I walked in the door. I didn't get one before work because she had a really tough day today with me leaving. I cried for pretty much the entire first half of my shift.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Thankful Thursday

It felt good to do this last week. So I'm going to continue it.

  • My dad for giving up some of his extra cirriculars and hobbies in order to redistribute the money spent there to my and Aubrey's needs. My parents totally believe you are a parent forever. Not just 18 years.
  • All my ig/twitter friends. The emails and comments over the weekend were overwhelming. Y'all have been good to me over the years. And Saturday when I lost my shit, y'all didn't disappoint. Some of you sent encouragement, prayers, hugs, and HIGH-FREAKIN-LARIOUS commentary. I needed all of it. Thank yall! And if you ever need a soldier in your corner, you know you can call on me (=
  • A washer and dryer. Dang, it seems like the laundry has quadrupled this week. What up with that?! Anyways, I have really been taking full advantage of these underrated appliances.
  • Bravo! I mean really. I don't know what I would do without my housewives. I cannot get enough "Real Housewives of...." I watch them all. Religiously.
  • Hindsight. Although, I wish I could have seen this clearly before I had to go through the drama. But then, I may not have gotten priss. So I guess ignorance is bliss?
  • Teachers that drill into their students' heads: your/you're, too/to/two, there/their/they're. Although, judging by my facebook feed, they need to stress that "our" and "are" are not only spelled differently but sound totally different. Why are they now mixed up? stop it.
  • The 2 men (notice no air quotes around this use of men) in my class at work that so kindly sat with me last night while I pumped gas so I didn't have to be there alone so late at night. They didn't even give me shit about "should have paid attention and taken care of this before your gas light was on at midnight". Their mama's raised them right!

What are you thankful for?

Monday, September 24, 2012

Project Pinterest

(I can't seem to get the button to work. It happens.)

AP at I Love You More Than Carrots is hosting a weekly link-up that should help force my hand in actually DOING everything I pin. I used to be pretty good, I would do a few pins a week. But now I'm working nights, living with my parents, stressed out, and all those other excuses. I don't live very close to any craft stores and I hate to have half finished projects around the house. Plus, my parents are not very adventurous with their dinner. But I am going to join this link-up and hopefully that will get me back into the routine of doing something new/different/fun/cute/yummy each week.

This week, I'm cheating a little. Like I said, I've been pretty bad about actually doing rather than just pinning. Pretty much my pinterest projects have extended only to getting myself ready each day... So it's nothing super complicated and I only have 1 pic. The pin has step by step pics, so no need to basically just re-take the same pictures, right? right.

I was a SAHM for 2 years. Before that, I worked part-time in a small office with 2 men. I really haven't had a need for "cute". But I am trying to make little changes with this new "do-over" life has thrown at me. One of those little things I can do, is put an extra couple minutes into getting myself ready. I still want to be comfortable, but I am finding ways to be comfy AND feel pretty.
So I bring to you..... the double braided headband!

I saw this and thought "easy peasy lemon squeezy" right? Eh... I wouldn't say it was insanely hard. But it was a little tricky. I had to do it a few times to make the braids look right. The key is to do the braid in the direction you want it to go. See how she is holding it straight out in step 4? Do it the way she is doing it. Maybe even a little higher. If you do it any lower, then when you try to cross it over your head, you will get super not cute lumps and bumps around your ear.
See how my back braid is super loose? Take the braid all the way to the ends. Because it will start getting loose and coming apart while you're playing with the bobby pins trying to get it down.
Also in this pic, is the sweater from this pin that I am obsessed with.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Silent Sunday: Pinspiring Quotes

have to finish with a funny....

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Campfire Chats with Miss J

Women women women. Let's chat. Men, y'all pay attention too. Lets sit down around the ole cyber campfire and have a chat. Shall we? We will take turns.... obviously, it's my cyber campfire so I go first.



Got it? No? Need me to elaborate further? Okay then.....

He-who-shall-not-be-named was on fire (not my campfire fire. another fire.) when I officially yet somewhat non-chalantly made it clear on the internet that we were separated. This was after us actually living apart for a month. He did not want our business on the internet. He did not want people to  know that we weren't still living our happily ever after. He did not want me to mention him or my marriage on IG, twitter, facebook, or here on the blog. I rolled my eyes at him respected his request and made a great effort to only post about ME and MY experience and avoid discussing him directly. That was of course, until tonight. Tonight, I found this.

{{picture has been removed due to illness. as in, it makes me ill to look at it and I don't want to make any of my sweet readers sick as well. but, you saw it. you all know what i'm talking about}}
Now granted, this isn't HIS instagram account. However, he did sit and pose for this picture and allow it to be taken. He then allowed it to be posted to a public internet account. He then allowed himself to be tagged in it. He then liked it. So, I guess he's OK with our business being on the internet now. Safe to assume? Sure would be hard to explain this "woman" sitting on his lap with a shit eating grin on her face if everyone still thought he had a wife and kid at home, huh? Although, I did still give them the courtesy of blocking out their faces. You're welcome.

So anyways, with that out of the way, I have a message to women. Not this particular "woman". I don't know her. I don't want to know her. Just women in general.

I think all our mama's have said it. But some of us are too damn stupid to hear it. "if he will cheat with you, he will cheat on you." When the mistress becomes the main, a position is left open. Are you starting to see where I'm heading? If he is married and can't be faithful to her- his wife, the mother of his child (if they have children, of course), the woman he made a vow in front of God and everyone- then what in the hell makes you think that you are so special and will mean anything to him? You're not special. You're nothing. You're ignorant. You're a disgrace to our gender. You make me sick. And should you choose to be with a man who you know is really not a "man" in any way except the physical definition, then you deserve what you get. I don't wish you luck. I should pray for you. But, if I'm being honest, I'm not that good. God still has a lot of work to do in my heart before I could bring myself to pray for you ... except maybe this country song prayer

I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hill.
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill,
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to.
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls.
I pray you're flyin' high when your engine stalls.
I pray all your dreams never come true.
Just know wherever you are, honey,
I pray for you.

So there's that. Feel free to join in on my lil campfire chat. Kumbayah and all that....

Ironically enough, I had actually had a really great thoughtful, moving post about forgiveness scheduled for tonight. I think I will post pone that one for a while. As Dixie Chicks said "I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time to go round and round and round."

Mini Blog Sale

I have had people message me a few times about when I get rid of Aubrey's things. I am finally starting to go through everything and am making myself get rid of it all. I don't have room to store it and doubt my future husband (maybe?) will want to dress his child in the things I bought with my first husband. I don't have many followers on the blog but I do notice a lot of views. So either I have an annoying stalker or there are a few readers. But I don't know another way to keep it organized and post easily. So I'm going to just post a few things for now, see if there's any interest, and will post more later!

I will say, these things have been in boxes or squished in a closet so some of it needs a little ironing. I will iron everything before I ship!

  Worn twice. $20

 The tag says 6m but I got 2 years of wear for this. She wore it to a family dinner when she was in 6m then she wore it for Easter pics again this year. The pants were long the first wear, capri's the 2nd time. Got this from Strasburg before they changed. $20
 Lolly Wolly Doodle (from facebook) 12m. She can still wear the top but the pants are a little tight. The top was like a tunic at 12m and is now like a regular shirt. Monogram A. Worn like 3 or 4 times. $20
 Worn maybe 4 times. $10
 Smockadot Kids (facebook) starfish dress "A" monogram size 12/18m. Worn twice. $20
everyone went nuts for this on Smocked Auctions this year. I had an A added to it after. Only worn maybe 3 times... $20
worn ONCE for Thanksgiving lunch last year $20

Prices negotiable. Will discount if you buy multiple items. Just ask!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Friday "Struttin"

Rachel over at Suburban Strut is doing a fun outfit Friday link-up. I didn't get a picture everyday, but I did get 3 out of 5... not too bad (= Now, I'm no fashionista by any means but I have to admit (most) days I have enjoyed being able to put on real clothes since starting my new job! I still like easy though....


Thursday, September 20, 2012

Thankful Thursday

On my old blog, I used to join a link up every Thursday called "Thankful Thursday". I can't remember who hosted it though. Does anyone remember? Or know if they still do it?
Either way though, I thought it would be nice to say "thanks" today.

So, today I am thankful for....
  • My new job. I was blessed to find one so quickly. And the company I work for is one with lots of opportunity, great benefits, and room to grow.
  • My mom for working her schedule around mine so she can keep Prissy for me while I go to said job.
  • My friends. IRL and online that have sent me random messages or comments just letting me know they are praying with me and for my sweet girl. Y'all don't know how nice it is to not feel alone sometimes!
  • A very special couple who has recently blessed me and Aubrey with a very thoughtful gift. Left me in tears.
  • My sister for growing my nephew inside her. She is in her 30th week, has had some scares and is already proving to be so brave. She will be a great mama. And I am so excited to be Auntie JuJu!
  • Email! Goes without saying...
What are you thankful for?

Of course I'm thankful for this precious ray of wild sunshine each and everyday (=

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Silent Sunday - Summer Summary

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Then I Got It

"ONLY a happy parent can raise a happy baby"

I can't tell you how many times I've heard this. Even before I was a parent I would hear this and think "well duh". Then during my marriage when I would vent to my mom she would repeat this. "You guys need to work it out so you can be happy" and of course I would roll my eyes like "duh I don't need you to tell me I need to be happy. Obviously I want to be happy. Nobody wants to be unhappy." And I would actually get angry when she said "if yall are this unhappy, particularly you, there is no way you can be raising a happy baby". Angry! How dare she! I refused to fight with him in front of the baby, I tried to just keep quiet and bite my tongue until 8 when I put her to sleep. If I had to say something, I tried to keep my tone down as not to upset her. She didn't even know I was unhappy, he was unhappy, we were exhausted, and I was constantly fighting to hold myself, and my family, together. She didn't know! When she was around, we were playing and hugging and I was telling her all the time how much I loved her and how lucky she was. I hated that my mom assumed, from 5 hours away, that I couldn't have a happy baby. I was venting to her. I didn't  vent to a 1 year old, she didn't know the things my mom knew.

I thought.

I was wrong.

I wasn't raising a happy baby.

I didn't realize it until this week. We were with family for a funeral. She was running around being silly with her cousins. I was sitting talking with an aunt. And then it happened. My daughter started uncontrollably laughing. Giggling. CRACKING UP. And my heart nearly exploded. I said to my aunt "oh, listen to her laugh!" I turned and got my mom's attention and mouthed to her "do you hear that laughter?!" I wanted everyone to stop and listen to this laugh. My aunt smiled and said "no matter how many times you hear it, there is nothing like a child's laughter". And I realized, I was so excited because I HAVEN'T heard it so many times. If we tickled her, she would laugh.. but she tried to fight it and it was nothing like this giggle.
I would watch videos of babies giggling uncontrollably and always thought "A doesn't giggle like that" but just assumed it was because she was so serious, or because she doesn't have an older sibling that giggles that way for her to mimic.
Yall, she wasn't giggling because she wasn't happy. She wasn't happy because she wasn't living in a happy home. I didn't have to tell her. I didn't have to yell at her daddy in front of her. She is part of me. She can sense what I'm feeling. When I hurt, she hurts; just like I hurt when she hurts. Since the separation, she is happier. Why? Because I'm happier. What a slap in the face, a punch in the gut, a really hard pill to swallow. Reality is hard.
I can remember a few times when he and I are fighting and I say "gosh, why does it seem like they are ganging up on me? About the time I get a text/email/phone call from him that upsets me, she seems to suddenly act like she has lost her mind. She takes my bad day and adds the cherry on top. Now, I am realizing perhaps my frustrations with him are transparent to her and she is only reacting to the vibes I'm putting off. She is reacting to me. So no more. She is nearly 2 and I have some serious making up to do. I am going to be a happy mama from now on. I am going to avoid things that stress me out. I am going to stay away from people that bring me down. I am going to put my child first. My child's happiness. And the only way I can ensure my child's happiness is to make her mama's happiness a priority.

real life, yall.

If I'm not happy, she can't be happy either.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Sincerely, Me

Dear Twiggs County Police,
If you pull out behind me without even your head lights on again, it will not be pretty. How do I know you aren't some crazy rapist, murderer, democrat, angry mistress, drunk driver about to crash into me, or mob boss about to send me swimming? I will perform a citizens arrest next time. We live in the woods. It's scary. Please don't do that. K? Thanks.
Scared Female Driver

Dear M'Lady Tammy Wynette,
I love you. Don't get me wrong. And my granny would probably knock my teeth out to hear that you're on my open letter list today. But, "after all, he's just a man"? Really? Nope. Just not enough. I do agree though that "sometimes it's hard being a woman".
Not Standing by Her Man

Dear USPS,
An expected delivery date is basically bible. So don't tell me it's expected on one day and a week later tell me to "allow an extra 2-3 days for delivery". That is unacceptable in my world.
Impatiently Waiting in Georgia

Dear Telephone Rep,
Please quit saying "I don't know" and "I apologize for any inconvenience this may have caused". You're not sorry, you're required to display empathy.... and you're not doing a good job of pretending. And inconvenience this MAY have caused? MAY have caused?! The time I have spent on the phone arguing with you is enough of an inconvenience on it's own. On top of the crap your company is dealing me, yeah, I'd say this MAY have caused a slight inconvenience.
Not A Happy Customer

Dear Coffee,
Thanks. That's all. You and your BFF creamer rock. So Thanks.
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